I was 7 years old when my parents divorced, I'm with my mom until 14 but managed to live alone when im 15 in a 10 storywest tower comdominium. I am still supported by my parents the allowance they give me is just right for school and food, so sometimes i work part time job as waitress. Living alone is not a big deal to me, at first i'm so excited being free but as time goes by the more sadness i feel in my life. Now the past is torturing me more that i could imagine.
--I was a cheerful and friendly person before, but when i reached teen level, my life started being miserable, in my middle school i'm always with the group who are the trouble-makers, i did even try smoking and had been drinking a lot and tried some dangerous drugs. I didn't know what my mom thinks at that time, she send me to my dad-who's taking a vacation with his wife in kingdom of sadudi arabia.There, i was really bored 'cuz it is close country so i stayed indoors.2 months had past i recieved an email from a friend, and i saw a pictures of my boyfriend and another girl kissing.is so much that i tried to kill myself, but didn't work.I had lose my virginity and this is what he's goin to pay me.
I was in agony for 3 months, but i thought that it would give me no good if i continue this reminiscing.
So i tried to be a different person from who i am last year, and i decided to live alone--
West tower condominium is 10 story building, i'm in 9th. I decided to go to reedley highschool, there were only 30 girls in the whole school. Reedley turned coed exactly when i just decided to go.
My freshman & sophomore yr in Reedley was kinda cool at the same time boring but fun.There were a few friends i have. There were a few guys invited me but i have no interest in them, sometimes there were stalkers but i managed to keep out of trouble. But today, september 13 my birthday and first day of being junior high schooler.
Hot coffee for breakfast, i didn't notice 5 min. more i am late. When i got there my teacher was about to introduce the newcomer, suddenly he was like dazzling me and i looked like an idiot staring at him for a moment, he looks like a model with a perfect angel face but his eyes looks like he wanted to kill someone. I am going to take my lunch at the rooftop but he was there and sitting exactly where i used to sit.
"excuse me that's my place." i said flatly. And then he was dazzling again, the wind blew his-bronze with a shade of black- hair, he look at me and then smile. I didn't realize i was staring into him for about 30 seconds, while my lower lip fell. I looked like a total stupid idiot in front of him. I guess i couldn't get my eyes off him if he didn't speak.
"i'm sorry, i didn't know the teritory has been claimed"he answered. He's face was like in agony.
but before i could speak he was gone. I feel guilty.
At night , the nightmare of past is still in my head. I would never forgive him. My mom's husband died because of me-because of him. I treated him the most important person in my life but he just played with me, and threw me away when he's done.