Postpartum depression- symptoms and risk factors

Dear Lucy,

More than anything in this entire world, I wanted to become a mom. My husband is infertile, so I got pregnant with donor sperm. A month after I gave birth, I was miserable and wanted to end my life. It was because I had this overwhelming feeling that I would purposefully harm my daughter. I didn't know why I had these thoughts, this should have been the happiest time of my life. I felt crazy and totally ashamed. I never knew this was a symptom of postpartum depression. If you write something about this, maybe some people will no longer be too embarrassed to get help? -Name withheld

Dear Anonymous,

Thank you for sharing your story! Many women do not seek help because they feel ashamed for having these thoughts. Hopefully by brining awareness to postpartum depression, it will no longer be a taboo topic.

Postpartum depression (PPD), also referred to as postnatal depression, effects ten percent of moms. One reason it occurs is because of a significant drop in progesterone and estrogen after pregnancy. Symptoms include insomnia, loss of hunger, intense anger/ irritability, extreme fatigue, lack of interest in sex, feelings of shame and guilt, difficulty bonding with the baby, isolating self from family and friends, thought of harming baby and/or self.

There are several risk factors ranging from having an unplanned/ unwanted pregnancy to being in a rocky relationship. The three most significant factors include having a history of depression, smoking, and not breastfeeding. If you suspect that your depression is more severe than the "baby blues", contact your doctor. Your doctor may prescribe anti depressants (there are some that are safe to use while breast feeding), direct you to a psychiatrist, or recommend support groups.

Postpartum Health Alliance of Northern California: (888) 773-7090 Postpartum Depression Hotline