NEGATIVE FEELINGS

(from my blog mmlncarter-sweetdreams.blogspot.com )I had a good time reminiscing about the good old days tonight. I had a great Friday night with my husband. He is 10 years my junior but, he remembers a lot about the good old days.The good old days for me are the 70's & the 80's. Even though I was in and out of abusive relationships,the music,movies and video's were awesome. I love Nostalgia......old black & white movies with such stars as Clark GableClark Gable,Lana TurnerLana Turner and Betty Davis, just to name a few. Fred McMurray was born in the same little town,that I was born and raised in. When I was a teenager growing up, I was fascinated by the Movie Stars. I read and read about the Movie Stars. I had all of these very SWEET DREAMS about my future,that never came to materialize. Actually,my life turned out to be the exact opposite of what I had visualized it to be. I had never in my wildest dreams imagined that I would be an abused woman time and time again, and that I would actually accept this treatment from men,time and time again,all because I desperately wanted someone to love me for the loser that I always thought that I was...........