It is shocking how Christians, or so called ones, in my area S Yorks, are so affected by social conformity they only allow morals to be respected if a person has street cred and acceptance in an increasingly immoral church and society, otherwise negating opinion of those who read and believe the Bible, to the worth of a whore. It is sick and immature and disgusting that human integrity is so debased. I have been victim of it myself, with looks as virgin stalker victim,as if I am a whore, with no respect for hard work and good character, and appalling sleaze, that I, a grown adult of 47, cannot cook as at age 16, or clings to immoral dead parents. It is shocking how minds go to such viewpoints, utterly perverse.
It is also appalling how they imagine, you feel, the thoughts in your head, thinking you are impressed by a capitalist, ruthless system, that only says nice people are the non abused, permissive Christians, who get social acceptance and strokes, and are influenced to see naive one off victims like me as dirty, despite them having had nice contained sex themselves, that I have never had. A corrupt world like that, bringing in vulnerable people to such immature perceptions, in interests of social survival, is not fit to be called a society. They may say if I was on such in crowds' what would you think if some one told you they are hurt and socially abused, once sex abused, like that isolate Tracy? Would you feel they deserve it for not behaving and thinking like us, and must have whored and lived in dirt for years?" I am afraid I would say I have been abused for my conscience and sympathy for vulnerable all my life, and would tend to feel such a victim was subject to corrupt and life destroying treatment by adults who feel they are in the right circles but make the innocent victims of their corruption and nonchalant gossip. All poisonous. A lot from the church, which in my area belies any truth of God.... I heard someone called idiot in Sheffield library today, hope not me but may mean me. And they say that immoral criminal parents are okay,and vulnerable innocent with scarred adult memory of suffering under human unscrulosity, are just social misfits with 'problems with parents'. That is the level of social immaturity I live with. They will not let me work. Could I according to adult conscience?